Yesterday morning I felt it was time.. I had not stepped on the scale in I don't know how long. My pants are feeling a little tight and I hate it when I feel like my gut is trying to escape over the top of my jeans. I don't like to wear forming shirts because I see this roll under the shirt and I become disgusted with myself. I took my clothes off to get in the shower and got up the nerve to step on the scale. I looked down with one eye and I see 135 blinking back at me. But it wasn't just blinking.. it was screaming stop being lazy you fat ass..

To those of you reading saying, OH my god I wish I was 135 lbs, keep in mind I am only 4'11, so for me it's heavy. In my life I topped the scales at 152 when I was pregnant. During non-pregnant adult life, my heaviest was 145 and my lightest was 110. (For me adult life is over 21) At 110lbs, looking back at pictures I think wow I looked so hot but it's very hard for me to maintain. I was running then and lifting weights 4-5 times a week. I was single and no kiddies of course so I could devote the time to it.

I had hit 145 my senior year in college, school was stressful, my mom was dying of cancer and I just didn't care. About two years after I graduated my elder sister was diagnosed with colon cancer at 29 yrs old. It was a wake up call for me. I needed to get the weight off and be healthy again.

After I got married I think I fell into what many couples do. You get comfortable with your spouse and situation and don't feel the pressure to be so thin.  I started to put a little weight on and before I got pregnant I was weighing in at about 125. After my son was born I did really good for awhile and I got back down to 125. But then after that first holiday season since his birth I just lost my motivation and have been slowly putting the pounds back on. Now I find myself at 135 - dangerously close to that 145 I once was.

It's time.... I need to get fit.....
Help me...................


2001 145 lbs


2003 115 lbs


2007 back up to around 132