First off I just want to say thanks for the kind words and prayers.

It always hits you hard when someone you love is in serious pain and your not sure about the future.   I've spent allot of time the last 10 days reminding myself of how much we have and how thankful we need to be. It takes only one second to get devastating news that can change the course of your life forever. How we deal with these situations helps define us and make us who we are. I am a true believer in the statement that God will not give you more then you can handle. Sometimes in order to be better you need to suffer - if even the only purpose is to bring you to the realization of how fragile life is and for the reminder not to take a single minute for granted. 

Among all these emotions the past 10 days I have felt allot of guilt. Joel and I have been bickering a bit more lately. As I have mentioned in other posts neither of us is thrilled with our jobs and I really want to stay at home with the baby. I've been putting allot of pressure on him. With that we also have big dreams too. We have a small home and want to upgrade one day. Maybe even get a shore house. It's hard to balance the desires and keep them in check. One thing I absolutely don't want is to get caught up in the Rat race. I've seen what it can do to people and how it affects the kids.  I feel time with the kids is more important then anything money can buy.

With that being said I'm sure your wondering what is going on with him! Well the surgery went well and Joel came home last Friday night. He has 21 staples in his stomach from the surgery. He is moving slow and has allot of pain in his abs. He's going to be out of work for about 4-6 weeks. I'm working from home all this week to take care of my boys and my job. As for the tumor it is benign!!! We are so relieved!!!